Spectator Music presents: the album that changed my life — Disintegration

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Wednesday, April 25th, 2018 at 5:33 PM
Spectator Music presents: the album that changed my life — Disintegration by Natalie Wiepert

When thinking back to what album “changed my life,” I’ll admit I found it hard to pick just one. Growing up in the post ‘90s era, the first thing that came up was “Nevermind.” And although it’s a great record, and worthy of this life-altering distinction, I felt I had to go with the album that made me fall in love with the broad range of music I listen to now. I wound up with a sort of pretentious, but ultimately fitting choice, “Disintegration” by The Cure. 

How I found this record was probably the same way any other 12-year-old growing up in the early 2000s would’ve discovered a gem from the ‘80s — my parents. Actually, I distinctly remember stealing the CD off their bookshelf. (Unless you’re my mom reading this, I never took things without asking).

I think most people can relate to the feeling of music being there for you in a way that the people around you can’t be. I sought out this record at a time when I felt alone. It was nice having this music here with me, not necessarily to know I’m not alone, but to be able to deal with it. 

This album predictably led me straight into the likes of Depeche Mode and The Smiths. But, I believe in a way it led me to everything I hold close to my heart in regard to current music, as well. 

I think it opened me up to music I may not have listened to otherwise. If it wasn’t for this record, I might have been stuck in my post-punk days forever. 

I fell in love with “Fascination Street” on a deeper level than just enjoying a song. There’s a lot of emotion here that hasn’t been matched in the same way with other music. Then there’s my favorite track, “Prayers For Rain,” which is the perfect combination of loneliness and despair, my favorite emotions. 

Many people view this record as darker and more depressing than the rest of The Cure’s discography, and I guess that’s true, but tracks like “Pictures Of You” and “Lovesong” were actually uplifting and hopeful to me. 

It may be a bit of a stretch to say I wouldn’t be who I am today without “Disintegration,” but it was the foundation for my passion for a variety of music. It was the gateway to other alternative genres that would have me going to concerts in other cities, to meet other people and to connect using music as the central point. When I think of this album, I think of all the incredible things, places and people I have seen with this as the soundtrack in my headphones.

It has made an impact on me and will likely serve as a gateway to other music in the future.  

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Natalie Wiepert is a managing editor (digital) for The Spectator. She can be reached at edinboro.spectator@gmail.com. 

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