Spectator Music presents: the album that changed my life — 'The Devil and God Are Raging Inside Me'

Category:  The Arts
Wednesday, April 26th, 2017 at 4:56 PM
Spectator Music presents: the album that changed my life — 'The Devil and God Are Raging Inside Me' by Dakota Palmer

Brand New’s 2006 album, “The Devil and God Are Raging Inside Me,” (TDAG) has considerably changed my life (honorable mention goes to Kanye West’s “Graduation” and The Killers’ “Hot Fuss”).

When I took guitar lessons nearly four million years ago, the first song I learned to play was a song from Brand New’s sophomore album, “Deja Entendu.” I had never heard of it before, but my guitar teacher assured me it was a great song. When I got home, I went to YouTube and ended up really liking the song, so I looked up more Brand New material. The first song that came up was, “Sowing Season (Yeah),” which is also the first song on TDAG.

The first time I heard Jesse Lacey scream, “YEAH!” I was hooked. I made my mom take me to CD Warehouse (RIP — it is now a Menchie’s Frozen Yogurt), and I bought TDAG for $11.99. My parents had gotten divorced shortly before I discovered this album. And it was exactly what I needed in my angsty days of being a teenager from a newly broken home.

By day, I was a fun-loving jokester goody two-shoes who watched “Hannah Montana” after her homework was done...by night, I was a depressed emo kid, screaming “The storm is coming!” in my room to no one in particular.

Now, let me set something straight — I’m still that same depressed emo kid that I was 11 years ago. But, the difference is that I can accept that I’m sad and accept that I’m angry. TDAG taught me it was okay to feel those feelings and that I wasn’t alone.

In grade school, everyone else seemed like they had perfect lives...they were smart, good at sports, pretty, had loving families. I felt out of place more often than not; I was smart, but that was all I had going for me, really.

When I listened to this album, I finally felt like someone could relate to how I was feeling while growing up. Lacey’s raw, real emotions hit me like a ton of bricks, and I knew that this album would resonate with me for a long time. The lyrics from this album are the most creative I’ve ever heard, and it’s always an honor to have them stuck in my head.

To be perfectly honest, this album has not only changed my life, but it’s saved it. This album is my outlet to still be angry, to still be sad. I’ll never grow tired of screaming, “You’ve set on me, but you are not the sun,” or watching Lacey perform “Luca” and howl, “WHERE YA BEEN” and immediately go into the greatest breakdown I’ve ever heard in my life.

Overall, this is by far the most flawless album I’ve ever come across. I owe my guitar teacher, Ryan, for introducing me to this perfect band, and
I owe Brand New for helping me realize that it’s acceptable to acknowledge those dark feelings and to fight off my demons.

Dakota Palmer is the news editor for The Spectator. She can be reached at musics.spectator@gmail.com. 

View Our YouTube Channel
Edinboro TV
Find Us on Instagram